So I’ve thrown away my scale. I stopped counting calories. I don’t use a tape measure to measure my various body parts unless I’m ordering clothes online. I’m running more, and incorporating other exercises into my routine (some more successfully than others!). I don’t eat when I’m sad, stressed out or angry anymore. I love the changes I’ve incorporated, and overall, I feel so much healthier.
That doesn’t stop the fact that I want to see results. This past weekend I confessed to my boyfriend that I was a bit discouraged. Lots of people have been telling me that I look great, I’m fitting into smaller clothes and most importantly I feel healthier. I’m proud of myself for not falling back into comfortable but unhealthy habits. However, I haven’t been able to see the changes.
I look in the mirror and I don’t see a difference. In my mind I look like I did before and while I’m certainly not negating the positive feedback I’ve gotten, it would be nice if I could see it myself.
It’s hard though, changes like this don’t happen overnight. I’m never going to go to sleep one size and wake up the next day smaller. It’s a subtle difference so when I look at myself in the mirror day to day it’s a lot harder to see a difference than when I have a friend that hasn’t seen me for a month or two.
My boyfriend was awesome, he listened to my frustration and then he sat me down in front of his computer and pulled up my Facebook page and proceeded to go through all my pictures from a year ago or more and then put them side by side with all the pictures that had been taken in the last few months (since I finished whole 30 and after).
It wasn’t immediate, but then I saw these pictures. Both pictures were taken from weddings. The one on the left from March 2013 and the on the right a little over a year later this past June. I think I look fabulous in both (never mind the hair in my eye on the left!) but there is definitely a difference in how I look. Yay for progress, and actually starting to see it!